I had such a beautiful morning. I had such a beautiful afternoon. My evening will be quite but great for sure. Why? As I feel sooo good. There are so many feelings flowing through my body right now, I cannot name all. There is a small dose of anxiety of course, but there is a huge joy at the same time. I’m also calm. I am at peace with my choice. I’m excited as well. I woke up at 3 am and did not sleep since. I know that my last-minute change is a good one. I know it will open completely new doors for me and I will learn tons.
7.30 am I was in the church to bake about 400 cookies – chocolate chip and peanut butter one. I’ve told you about the Gubbio project I got involved to 2 months ago. My last day will be on Tuesday and I have already cried over that. It was such a beautiful experience. I’ve learnt so much about myself, I helped myself and others on the way.
I’ve spoken to my parents this morning. When I called them they already read my post. Bless their hearts as expected they are freaked out. That’s ok. It’s their job as parents to be worried. For them I always will be a kid and I understand that.
Apparently I’m changing my mind too often and everybody on the way will push me in the different direction. Well, if that’s how it looks from outside I cannot help. For me I know what I’m doing. I’m an individual and you cannot manipulate me. I listen but I will do my way anyway. I don’t follow others, I follow my instinct, intuition, gut feeling. I’m going with the flow, MY flow.
Below are the pictures from this morning. People I’ve worked with for those 2 months are blessed, beautiful people. What they do on a day to day basis is truly amazing. My perception of poverty and homeless has changed. I’m really proud of myself that I was able to see a human being in every single guest who come over to that church. I smiled, I touched , I talked, I just shared myself with them. They are sons and daughters like me. Whatever their reason is to be on the street it’s their choice. Sometimes it’s a choice, they simply don’t fit the system. Sometimes it’s a mental issue. Sometimes it is the life’s circumstances. There will be a day when they are ready to pick up or maybe not. I don’t judge. I’m learning to let people be whoever they are, or choose to be.
I appreciate people concern. I really do. If there is anything I can ask is to share good tips, good places or good people contacts I can stay with. Please don’t share with me your fears. They are yours. They are from your experience, your perception, your flow. They don’t belong to me so please please keep it to yourself. I have my own one and going south instead of west is not one of them. Thank you. Thank you in advance!
I’m just about to check what to do with my flights. Lesson learnt. If you ever plan your self discovery trip don’t go with the booked itinerary. If you travel to see the world it is a great idea, but if like me you really want to learn and look at yourself in a new way an itinerary become an inconvenient not help. There is no way you will stick to your original plan. Once you discover magic of life, magic of intuition, magic of flow all you want to do is just go with it. Then you have to accept that there is no possible way to know where it will take you next. All you have to do is just trust. I trust. I trust myself. I trust that my life path is lightning before me and there is something I don’t know yet but I will find out soon. Maybe in Latin America:)